At the end of world's, I merely look back at what I have done, what has happened and ponder if anything could have been done. The answer is an astounding 'Yes'.

I still remember the moments, when i looked upon Tim receive the Martin Soreanson's award, when IIU broke after the bubble round against us. It was then when I vowed that someday, I would be the best speaker at the world's and lead my team to the glory of championship. That was my new born dream... but a dream i had forgotten... I vow lost in words to be put in action.

But WUDC brought it back, filled my soul once more with the over-whelming desire to succeed. At the end of the break announcement I said, 'Someday, it will be my team on that list'. And i said it with all my heart. My trainer gave me words of assurence, and encouragement... I appreciate it really Aji. But much needs to be done if i were to charge ahead to acquire this dream. It is something i cannont do alone. I am only as good as my team, and i need my squad to be with me.

The state of the squad is a horror. Pulling them together will not be an easy task. But easier to do is to bring myself back to who i was. The Neil who assumed responsibility, and takes positive steps as a leader. It is a person lost in the last few months but now to be found. Some do not trust me, and some will pull me apart from what i love. I shall not succumb to such forces. As proud as I am at times, humble I shall be. It is a concept not learnt in members of the squad from A to Z. I start from scratch and deem to be the worst of speakers, and from there I shall rise. It's all in the mind. It's all in the attitude. No more 'second grade attitude' Neil. No more of it. It is not worth for your first grade mind.